Picture Credits – Jeannie Selda
“Love is just as much about our worth as it is about
allowing ourselves to just receive.”
– Jennifer Hough
I understood more deeply that asking “WHY” love is not happening for you is a way to stay endlessly stuck in a cycle of intellectual examination, and evidence for your perceived lack of deservingness.
WHAT IF… all it takes is curiosity on the adventure?
After all, Life has already landed the answers to HOW loved you are, and all the various ways that it can be expressed.
WHAT IF… all it takes is vigilance for the answers that are waiting for you?
Being conscious, present, and curiously looking for what has already been there!
Last week, I had an experience of just that with my sweetie, Adam… UGH!
My nervous system was trained in my childhood to look for what I was doing wrong, and how I was going to be judged next by the world outside of me. After all this work, you’d think that I’d seen the last of that habit. And yet, uh- uh… nope.
You might already know that Adam built this entire home studio in the basement for me. It’s to be used as a podcast room and presentation studio, with all the lighting, bells and whistles (prompters, sound proofing, green screen, awesome microphone, and wicked camera). Last Friday, I was presenting at Bernardo Moya’s “Love Event.” Did I use my new home studio? Nope.
I hadn’t truly realized what an act of love that home studio is; how it came from beyond 3D, as I wasn’t even asking for it.
So there I was, feeling excited and ready to speak for my talk in my own office. For the first time in a year, my sweetie wasn’t home, my dog was in my office, and what happens? Someone came to the door and rang the doorbell and my dog went nuts!Of course, this all happened in the 25-minute slot I had to share my heart with the audience of many from around the world.
By the way, you can’t hear the dog bark down in the home studio, as it’s sound proofed.
I am so clear that the reason that happened is that I hadn’t fully received this gift from Adam, because I was being my stubborn self. Alas. We learn.
Love is just as much about our worth as it is about allowing ourselves to just receive.
Sometimes my sweetie is a gruff, loud, serious dude, but when I came home, he brought my favorite chocolate, and the most beautiful card saying how sorry he was that I was so resistant to his gift to me.
Now, was it okay that the dog barked? Sure. Nothing ever really goes wrong. It shows that we are human, I am human and sh*t can happen. It threw me off for a minute, but then I got to share my dog, Mighty Mouse, with 2K people. He was a star!
And… if a dog isn’t an unconditional love Activation, I don’t know what is?!
Are you ever stubborn about receiving?
Do you go kicking and screaming sometimes?
If something doesn’t go according to plan, do you let love win anyhow?
Have you asked yourself the question, “How can love win?”
I so appreciate life for kicking my butt sometimes. Sigh. Be vigilant for the love today!
With love and an open heart,